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it starts with overthinking in bed and ends with hot sweats at 4am in the middle is everything else. all of the hidden hot tears and the cold lonely nights wishing someone was there to keep you warm. seeing the smiles on everyone else and the loving looks they give knowing that they have each other. it’s nice that other people don’t feel the way i do. i wouldn’t even wish the way i feel to be the way the person i hate felt every day and night. i hope someday i have someone who is warm and can thaw my through when i’m frozen. and who can calm me down when i’m being dramatic like i always am when it comes to the things in my brain.